Saturday, September 29, 2012

Meri Talaash मेरी तलाश


मुझे तलाश है मेरी ,
अभी तक अंजना हूँ मैं मुझसे ,
कैसे पहचानू खुदको ?
दूसरों की नज़रों से या अपनी सोच से !
कहाँ से तलाशु अपने आपको !
लोगों की भीड़ में या अकेले सन्नाटे में !

ओझल आँखें , बोझल धड़कने ,
थक गयी खुद को तलाशते हुए ,
इधर-उधर देखा तोह  कोई नहीं मिला ,
जिनसे कर सकूँ अपने शिकवे-गिले ,
नहीं नहीं  , इलज़ाम किसी पर नहीं लगा रहीं हूँ ,
मुझमे ही कोई खोट होगी जो ढून्ढ नही पा रहीं हूँ .

इरादा तोह थी अपने में आपको तलाशने की ,
आखिर कब तक यूँ ही गुपचुप घरियाँ गुजारती ?
अगर अपने हाथेली पे किस्मत को ले पाती ,
तोह बेख़ौफ़ होकर कम से कम यह तोह कह पाती ,
"देखो मुझे , देखो मेरी ओढ़ ,
मैंने आखिर तलाश लिया अपने आपको" .....



Mujhe talash hai meri ,

abhi tak anjana hoon main mujhse ,
kaise pehchanu mujhko ?
doosro ki nazro se ya apni soch se !
kaha se talashu apne apko !
logon ki bheed me ya akele sannate me !

Ojhal ankhein , bojhal dhadkanein ,

thak gayi khud ko talashte huye ,
idhar-udhar dekha to koi nehi mila ,
jinse kar saku apne shikve-giley ,
nehi nehi , ilzaam kisi par nehin laga rehi hoon ,
mujhme hi koi khot hogi jo dhoond nehi paa rehi hoon .

Irada to thi apne me aapko talashne ki ,

akhir kab tak yun hi chupchup ghariya guzarti ?
agar apne hatheli pe kismat ko le paati ,
toh bekhauf ho kar kam se kam yeh to keh paati
"dekh mujhe , dekh meri odh ,
maine akhir talash liya apne aapko" .....





Wednesday, September 5, 2012

Old Pages

This yellow book speaks
Without any voice ,
Lots of things of pleasure and sorrow ,
Of knowledge and solace ,
Which absorb into the deepest of my heart .


This is obviously very old ,
Even with a few torn pages 
Which I don't care .
I am obsessed with it ,
Can't stop myself from turn the next page .... 




Tuesday, August 14, 2012

A SOLDIER'S LOVE STORY

I had read a blog of a girl who has lost her fiance in the battle field ... here is her writing about her beloved -

 

A SOLDIER'S LOVE STORY!



I was 19 and you were 23. You were serving at an unit near my home. I don't know what happened to us as we exchanged looks at the raising day of your unit. The next very moment you came closer by and asked me if I was interested in dancing with you. I said yes, and off we went to the dance floor. As we started dancing romantic songs started playing,you caught me by my waist and I by your shoulder. We started talking and your constant staring at me made me blush. After the dance and dinner got over,it was time for me to leave but then you asked my number. I gave you mine and everyday we started talking to each other. The day came for you that you got transferred. The night before you left, you told me that you fell in love the very first day you saw me. I cried because you were going far away from me. We were in two different states but kept in touch. Few years later we got engaged. After our engagement you had to leave for the terror stroked Kashmir, promising that you would be back on our wedding day. I was eagerly waiting for the day to come. One day a Phone came from your regiment saying that you became a martyr in the battle ground. I cried my heart out but then had to be strong because I was mentally aware that this can happen. Baby,I know wherever you are watching me write this. I just want to tell you that I love you. And miss you a lot. 

---In memory of Someone special


http://www.causes.com/causes/115592-support-indian-army-in-the-war-against-terrorism/actions/1638976


That was very heart touching and brought tears in eyes ... I felt to write something about her feelings ... This is my small tribute to that soldier and  may their love story will live forever ... 

Ek shaam aisi bhi thi woh ,
door se dekh rahe the tum mujhko ,
kuch der yun beeti ,
ek samay tum samne aayein ,
chupke se kehne lage -
"mujhe dance nehin aata ,
par kya tum mere sath dance karogi ?"
mana na kar payi ,
tumhare badhte haathon ko tham liya .

Us din koi music nehin thi ,
na aur koi the ,
sirf aur sirf barish ki dhoon thi ,
aur usme hum dono ke tedhe medhe kadam thirak rahe the ,
bekhayal the hum ,
ek doosre ke ankhon me the gum ,
tum mujhe dekh rahe the ,
main tumhari nazron se sharmake chhup rehi thi .

Phir aaya ekroz ,
jab tumne kiya izhar ,
usroz tumne kaha tha -
"pehli bar dekhte hi mujhe ho gaya tha tumse pyar ,
kya tum meri banogi !"
main ro padi thi ,
itni khushiya kahan rakhu samajh nehin paa rehi thi ,
bas sadh heela payi thi .

Par desh bula rahe the tumhe ,
apne kartavya nibhane chale the tum ,
kar gaye mujhse wada laut aane ka ,
mujhe yakeen tha tum zaroor aaoge ,
isiliye dulhan ke livaas pehne
kar rehi thi tumhare aane ka intezar ,
kab aaoge tum !
bharoge meri maang !
raasta tumhari tak rehi thi bar bar .

Wada nibhaya tumne ,
usi din wapas aayein ,
mujhe sindoor pehnane nehin ,
apne kafan par chadar chadhane ,
jane se pehle yehi tha tumhari akhri khwaish ,
ke ek bar tum mujhe dulhan bane dekh sako ,
dekho , jee bhar ke dekho mujhe ,
dulhan ke roop me khub saji hoon aaj ,
maine apni baat rakhi ,
tum kaise apne baaton se mukar gaye !
aise kaise chale gaye !
tum nehin toh main kaise rahoon ,
kaise tumko bhool pate !

Rimjhim barish me aaj bhi kadam dagmagati hai ,
ankhein bhar bhar aati hai ,
koi haath mere odh nehi badhta ,
kano me aake chupke se nehi kehte -
"mujhe dance nehin aata" .........




   

Thursday, August 9, 2012

Shyam Sundar श्याम सुन्दर

Geet se karu vandan .
Ohri Shyam sundar ,
Puju sada Mohan chhavi ,
Dhyan leen yogi nyay ,
Aankh jis odh dhay ,
Wohi Giridhari Base ,
Unke aagey prem bhakti bhare ,
Man mera Muralidhar ke charnon tale .....

 गीत से करू वंदन  ,
ओरी  श्याम सुन्दर ,
पुजू सदा मोहन छवि ,
ध्यान लीन योगी न्याय ,
आँख जिस ओढ़ धाय  ,
वोही गिरिधारी बसे ,
उनके आगे प्रेम भक्ति भरे ,
 मन मेरा मुरलीधर के चरणों तले .....



Wednesday, August 1, 2012











Rain drops , so soothing & smooth ,
Refreshing my soul & purify me ,
Stop me today & make me new ,

Feel so fancy & free like you ..


Rain Rain please stay with me ,
Cause I'm in love with you ,
I can hide my sorrow into you ,
Rain Rain , I do not let you go ....    

Saturday, July 14, 2012

jhooth muth ke sapney झूठ मुठ के सपने

झूठ मुठ के सपने ,
बुरी आदत या बुरी बाला जैसे ,
सच्चे ख्वाब से मन में परिंदे उढ़ते है ,
झूठे ख्वाब सिर्फ दिन में जुगनू दिखाते है ,
पहचाने ना जाने तक दोनों सपने ही अपने लगते है ..


यूँ तो सपने जब टूटते है खुद को बहलाने की वजह  नहीं मिलती ,
पर झूठे सपनों से जब पर्दा उठता है
तो खुद को छुपाने की जगह नहीं मिलती ..


रंग - बेरंगी सी सपने ,
मीठे - नमकीन सी सपने ,
अपने - बेगाने से सपने ,
जाने - अनजाने से सपने ,
किसी भी नगमे की देखो सपने ,
अपने आपको मिलाओ सपनों की ताल से ,
बस दूर रहो उस मिलावटी सपनों से ,
जो लगे तो अछे पर है झूठ से सजे .....


Jhooth muth ke sapney ,
Buri adat ya buri bala jaise ,
Sache khwab se man me parinde udhte hai ,
Joothe khwab sirf din me jugnoo dikhate hai ,
Pehchane na jane tak dono sapney hi apne lagte hai ...


Yun to sapney jab toot te hai khud ko behlane ki wajah nehi milti ,
Par jhoothe sapnon se jab parda uth ta hai
Toh khud ko chhupane ki jagah nehi milti ....


Rang-berangee si sapney ,
Meethe-namkeen si sapney ,
Apne-begane se sapney ,
Jaane-anjane se sapney ,
Kisi bhi nagme ki dekho sapney ,
Apne aapko milao sapnon ki taal se ,
Bas door raho us milawati sapnon se ,
Jo lage to achhe par ho jhooth se saje .....








Monday, July 2, 2012

Tere sath Tere Bageir .. तेरे साथ तेरे बगैर


आज तक मिला नही यह जवाब ,
किस्से खुश हूँ मैं ?
तेरे साथ या  तेरे बगैर !


अभी भी तुझे छुप छुप के देखने की आदात गयी नहीं ,
कोई पीछे से थपकिया दे  तो 
मुझे लगता है यह तेरी शरारत तो नहीं है !
                                                                             
चाँद की ठंडक जब तेरे सपनों में लेके जाती है ,
सुबह की लाली जब मेरी नींदें उड़ाती है ,
तब तेरे ख्यालों में खुद से ही बातें किया करती हूँ 
काग़ज़ पर तेरी तसवीरें जैसी बनाती रहती हूँ ,
ताकि तेरा तराना महसूस कर पाऊँ हरदम ,
चाहे हो तेरे साथ या  तेरे बगैर .


तेरे एक एक बातें सोचकर अकेले में ही हंसती रहती हूँ ,
हंस हंस के कब आँखें भर आती है जान भी  ना   पाती हूँ 
क्या हो रहा है यह ! क्यूँ हो रहा है यह !
नहीं पता मुझे इसके आगे की  दास्ताँ ,
आखरी पन्ना कैसे लिखू !
तेरे साथ या  तेरे बगैर !!!!







Aaj tak mila nehi yeh jawab ,
Kisse khush hoon main ?
Tere sath ya tere begair !

Abhi bhi tujhe chhup chhup ke dekhne ki adaat gayi nehin ,
Koi peechhe se thapkiya de toh
Mujhe lagta hai yeh teri shararat to nehin hai !

Chand ki thandak jab tere sapnon me lekar jaati hai ,
Subah ki laali jab meri neendein udhati hai ,
Tab tere khyalon me khud se hi baatein kiya karti hoon ,
Kagaaz par tere tasveerein jaisi banati rehti hoon ,
Taa ki tera tarana mehsoos kar paun hardam ,
Chahe ho tere sath ya tere begair .

Teri ek ek baatein sochkar akele me hi hansti rehti hoon ,
Hans hans ke kab aankhein bhar aati hai jaan bhi na paati hoon !
Kya ho raha hai yeh ! kyun ho raha hai yeh !
Nehin pata mujhe iske aagey ki dastaan ,
Aakhri  panna kaise likhu !
Tere sath ya tere begair !!!